My future

Everytime when parents, aunties, uncles, relatives or others asked me about my future or what I want to be in the future, Im afraid that I don't know how to answer them. Im not keeping it as a secret or what. Just I have no idea what am I going to do in the future. Really. Sometime I will think about it but... Im not very good in science subjects such as physics, biology, chemistry and maths. Im not as good as others. Haiz. Actually who likes to study? I think most of us don't like.. We just force ourselves to study. To get a good result need to put a lot of times and efforts on it. But Im lazy, sorry. Nowadays people just looks at your education level and therefore many students force themselves to read read read. So do I. But no choice la.

I hope my future will be a life that I love and I enjoy. I should always stay strong to face the problems and challenges now and even in the future. This world is cruel. But there are hopes and wonderful things in this world too. Im not that good in my studies, but I can mix well with others and communicate with them. I think I can give good advice to them too. What should I do in the future? To be a counselor? Eh.. Not enough for me.. I mean I hope to be something better than this. Do bussiness? Like my parents? Actually is quite busy and tired you know. How about a teacher? Simple and easy work. But just have a look at those students now. Those in primary school like my brother. Haiz. Really difficult to teach la. No eye see --"

Actually I hope to study abroad. But do I have a chance? Moreover study abroad is not that easy. But I would like to gain some experiences in the foreign countries. It's actually awesome. But need to be brave too. Haha. Anyway, I must believe myself I can do it! Yeah~ Good luck for my future^^

Want to share somrthing here~
"The simple truth is that victory and satisfaction belong to those who do not choose the path of least resistance when faced with major life challenges." Cool le? Somenoe told me one la.. Haha~

猫的离去

曾经爸爸把一只白白的猫带回家，开始时它很陌生，一直叫个不停。自从把它从笼里放出来后，我的家就变成它的家。它爱睡哪里就睡哪里，但唯有我的床不能睡。每天回家时它都会跑前来欢迎我们，然后我们一回家第一时间就是疼摸它。它总是在我们脚边走来走去，摸来摸去的。有时候坐着时它会跳上来躺在我的大腿上，迟迟都不肯下来。它害我的双腿都变麻痹了。

它爱看外面的风景，看小鸟在栏杆上唱歌。它那大大的双眼一直盯着远方，不懂它究竟在看些什么。有时它懒洋洋地躺在哪儿睡觉，我叫它，它回头望一望我，便转回头继续躺着。我再次叫它，它就不睬我了。它明知我在叫它。它就是爱面子不要望我。每当它饿时，它就会叫我跟着它。它走到厨房，然后对着我猫猫叫。我知道。你饿了。给了食物，它便迫不及待地大口大咬。它真的超饿的啦。

三年了，看着你三年了。我曾看过生病的你。那时你突然大声地咳着，很辛苦的样子。你过后就吐出一些“东西”出来。我很怕，怕你会生病，然后就离开我。曾经也看过你身上流出许多红色的血，流在你那雪白的毛上是显得那么的明显啊！可是过后你都有好起来了。

那天回家后，看到地上到处都很肮脏，而且还可以看到你的脚印。那脚印一步一步地走向厨房那里。一打开灯，就看到你躺在厕所里面。爸爸叫你，幸好你的双眼还可以动。爸爸试着让你走动，可却你不动。过后爸爸把你抱到厨房去，你就躺在那里，也是不动。过了没多久，我趴在你面前叫你，你那两个大大的眼睛看着我，似乎在想些什么。其实，你并不是第一次这样望着我。每当你这样望着我时，我知道，我知道你一定在想些什么。遗憾的是，我不能知道你其实在想些什么。我真的好想能读取你的思想，真的好想。那时你就要走的时候，你就是这样望着我的。我摸一摸你的头，这是我时常做的，你就突然整个动了起来。你挣扎得很。我看着痛苦的你，便大声地叫爸爸下来。你大声地叫起来，很痛苦很痛苦。当爸爸过来叫着你的时后，你突然停下来，没有再挣扎了。爸爸再次叫你，你没有动了。我问爸爸你死了吗？爸爸不确定。过了一会儿，你仍然还是不动。这时，我们终于知道你走了。。。7月16日的晚上，你终于走了。。

我跑进自己的房间，眼泪顿时流了出来。我感觉到流下来的眼泪是温的，是伤心的温度。我知道，我以后再也见不到你了。我难过，但那只是几天而已。现在我不会再难过了。我会时常想起我们一起的时候，我要把这些美丽的回忆永远放在我的脑海里。

再见了，我可爱的小猫。

The Real Of Me

Y i created this blog is because i want to express my feeling here. Cause sometimes v may not say it or show it out in front of people. 'The Real Of Me'.. ya, through this blog i want to know about the real of me. U know, i think all of us hope that our friends really can understand and comprehend us. But how many of them will do so? Eveyone thinks that i have everything. But actually is not. Im very tired. Sometimes i will feel boring about this life. And at that moments i always need someone to be with me. Of course, i have some friends who comprehend me and they also know about it. Everyone hnows I have many friends. Many people just so admire or sometimes jeolous to me and actually i know that. I really don't know how to do la. I keep on telling myself just be myself. Cause im like that. But have many friends doesn't mean that im happy always. Ya, i know i should feel greatful about that. I know some friends wished to be like me. Im sorry to them. But i hope that i can share my joy to them. And i just want them to feel my kindness to be a friend to them. That's the real of me. Really. And I also want to thank my good good friends who always be with me. Without u all i think i cant survive la. Haha.

Sometimes alone will think a lot. Many nonsense things or some negative one too. I didnt force myself to think about it. The happy and sad memories just fall into my mind always. Especially before sleeping or alone. Haha. Think about friends la, small that time la, family la, at school la, and my privacy. Haha. Some sweet some bitter. But i do enjoy to think about it. Even though after thinking will be down down one.

I like to look at the sky at night and think. Dunno y le. Recently can see the big big moon at the sky oh. So yellow orange oh. Like an egg yolk. Haha. I just love it. Recently someone introduced me to watch the view of the sky in the early morning oh. Very amazing oh. Haiz. In the morning i always rushing to go to school where got time to see le. Anyway the weather now really cannot tahan la. Im sick now. Bad... Tired plus sick. My mum and dad said my face looked tired and white la. Relly so bad meh. I don't know how to take care of myself. So stupid.

Em em.. First time write blog le me. Hope i will write it often la. And trial is coming. Three more weeks only but now im sick. Haha. Hope i can focus on it la. That's all... The real of me. Say goodbye la.