National Service, I'm coming now!!!

Yesterday just went to buy those things which need to bring to the camp..
So so so many things i need to bring there..
That day i went to check my body in the clinic near my house to fill the forms for ns..
Waited almost a half day man..
Then this saturday Im going to the camp..
Three months!!
Who can understand my feeling?
I need to live a new life there.. With new environment, new friends, new lessons...
A bit afraid..
I wish i can meet someone which i really can mix with..
I hope to learn more..
I hope that i can really understand myself through this camp..
About future.. about myself..
What i really really want in my life?
What field should i take or so on..
If u ask me now, I just can say 'I don't know.'
I think I'm lost in these few years.. Really..
Lost in directions are something so scary and so helpless..
Come on.. Ns.. Let me be open-minded..
Let me to realize..
Let me to learn..
Le me to choose..
Le me to feel....
Thanks for giving me this chance to go for this camp..
Maybe it will be very bad..
But who cares..
Just let me to feel and to touch...
To begin my new life..
Say goodbye to the pass..
U can do it!
Just to believe yourself..
HAPPY NEW YEAR...

spm... Still have 2 subjects only.. hallelujah~

Just write something here.. yeah~ still have 2 more days then im free... Em.. actually just dunno how is the feeling now.. Cause next year im going to national service.. Go to Rawang. KL man.. Almost three months le.. Complicated feeling.. Hope i can learn many new things there.. Ns, Im coming lo~ Miss all my friends oh!

Beautiful memories... (Part 1)

This is Pui Ling oh... very match with the flowers oh~ Haha

That's me.. Cool leh..

I will never forget this stair.. It made me almost fell down...

So rush for what? Slowly slowly la~

This is Mdm.Joshphine.. Our form teacher..

Yo.. Pretty young girls.. Except for......

Yeah~ Drink milo.. Look at those people there..

Em~ Yummy yummy~ Y can't see Pui Yee's face de?

Yam..... Sing~~(for milo...) =.=''

This is Hui Chin and me~

The middle one is Jing Yee oh.. Beside that are Pui Yee and me~

Yo~All pretty girls in 5S1.. (Me,Pui Ling, Yet Ying, Pui Yee, Hean Yoong, Kit Yue and Kah Yan lo~)

We look like sisters right? Hehe.. From left: Me, Mee Shin, Kit Yeng, Pui Yee

Best friends~ Pui Yee and me~

Hahaha~ is Oung Oung la~

Wei, no need to ponteng in front of the toilet ba?

Wei wei, still dun want to listen oh?

The view of my school from the highest place~

Going to rain lo?

Soh po.. Haha~

They are my close friends^^ (Pui Yee and Hui Chin)

Pui Ling and Hui Chin

终于有朋友去我家啦...!

昨天晚上，慧君与他的男朋友来我的家哦！
那时我已换好睡衣在客厅里看电视的~
怎知慧君突然打电话来说她在附近哦！
所以，我就去换衣服然后带他们去昆仑喇叭（我的家乡）找吃的咯~
那时又下着雨哦~
几有feel一下的哦！
虽然我觉得我有点像“电灯泡”...
但是是他们约我出去的嘛~
而且那时差不多已十点了...
我很少能在这么晚去跟朋友喝茶的嘛~
所以很开心呢！
喝完茶后我们就去long街，
我们有说有笑，感觉真的很自在呢…
然后....慧君想去我家哦，
所以就去咯！
嘻嘻，佩仪，慧君先抢一步到我的家去啦=p哈哈~
我的家真的很乱的啦~
我的房间更不用说了~
结果他们一直都呆在我的房间里“东找西翻”咯~
我的房间里真的有很多很多“垃圾”咯·，
害到我有点不好意思呢~
而且，又有个“高高的”男生在里面哦~
唉，幸好他没怎样啦，哈哈~
结果叻，慧君拿了一些我“太多”的东西回家咯！
她很开心呢！
爸爸就敲门说不要玩到那么晚喔，
酱我们也很听话的，
所以他们差不多十二点酱才回家咯！（还说不要这么晚的哦==''）
我想平时这个时候我应该呆在床上等着去睡觉吧~哈哈
所以所以，我觉得这是个难忘的一晚哦！
真的很感谢他们来我家玩哦！
慧君说下次再跟佩仪来我家哦~
我想我们整晚都不用睡的啦~~
哈哈~
真的很开心呢！

Something funny for u all...

Hello~大家好，我是小绵羊！应该看得出来吧？很高兴可以上镜呢！

这就是我的侧面啦~是不是看起来比较可爱呢？还是帅点？哈哈~

这个...千万不是棉花糖喔！是我的背面啦！不过...别酱色啦你，看人家的屁屁！

( ⊙o⊙ )哇~今天的天气真不错啊~

哦哦~原来这样看天空也不错呢！（喂喂，你走光了啦！）

想一想其实我只不过是个小绵羊...一个人看天空很无聊呢~

呜呜~~~~(>_<)~~~~ 没有人陪我的~

难道我要一个人寂寞孤独地死去吗~（很夸张叻！）我要朋友~朋友...朋友...你快出来吧~

咦？我隔壁好像有些什么？？

等下等下！不是说好上镜的只有我吗，导演？（导演：哎呀~又是你说‘朋友朋友快出来’的咩？）

Eh...你..你好啊...你就是那位传说中的‘朋友’？？

来！从今天起我就是你的‘阿头’！！你以后都要听我的！1哈哈~（导演：喂喂！你做什么阿头啊？！相不相信我踢你下来！）

ok ok咯~我刚才只不过在开玩笑而已嘛~

那我们以后都是好朋友咯！朋友们，记得要好好珍惜朋友哦！=）

遗憾的是.....

遗憾的是，
我似乎不能跟其他朋友在这剩下的时间里好好相处...
真的很遗憾啊~
虽然说现在离毕业那天还有一些时间...
但是啊，
最近就是会想比较多...
其实觉得蛮伤心的啦~
因为觉得以前曾经很要好的朋友现在好像对我很冷漠哦...
明明要到毕业那天了说，
却觉得他们离我很远很远酱...
唉~
难道他们都忘了大家以前曾很傻，很疯，很癫地在一起玩的咩~
真的忘了吗？
我很想念那时候呢，
想一想以后大家很少有机会在一起了...
真的很遗憾啊~
可是现在我也不懂要怎样做大家才会像之前那样...
只要看到他们，
脑海里就会想起大家在一起哈哈大笑的那些回忆...
不舍得啊~
究竟要怎么办呢？
要好好珍惜...
可能我想太多了...
最近都是这样...
真是complicated啊~
哈哈哈~
一定要把遗憾在毕业前全都‘丢’掉才行...
酱才不会后悔啦...
就这样说定咯。
别留下遗憾！
ok? Promise...

那时的回忆.....

那天星期日子在家里觉得闷闷的，就回到自己的房间打算要睡觉的咯~
可是又不能一下子睡着哦，就把放在橱里的那箱盒子拿出来看咯。
那个盒子里面都装满了被拆开来的星星纸...
是的，每当心情不好时我都会把某个人送给我的星星给拆开来看，
心情会变得好些吧...
被拆开的星星纸里都可以看见一个熟悉的字迹...
那些字迹让我回想起以前的自己...
和曾经跟某人的回忆...
几年前的事就好像在昨天发生了一样...
不知不觉都过了蛮久的，
现在回想起来觉得有点愚蠢呢，
但它却是那么的真实，
毕竟那是个难望的事故啊...
因为那些事，让我成长了许多...
当然也成熟了不少...
里面所留下的回忆，
有开心的，也有伤心的，有在乎的，
有伤害的，有心疼的，有尴尬的，还有烦恼的...
以前总是会想为什么会偏偏发生在我身上的？
那只是在逃避吧...
尽管如此，我还是很感谢，
因为我得到的更多...
虽然当时的回忆似乎变得越来越模糊了.，
但它依然还保留着在我的心里...

回忆是上天给我们最好的礼物。

Is the time for study now! Restrict unnecessary activities!

More sweat, no more fun! I know i have to keep on reminding myself to this. No choice, I have to do it! And what makes me happy and glad about that Im having a study group at school now! Since teachers don't teach us at school now and we just have nothing to do in our class everday, so, I suggested to have a small study group with two of my friends. Well, after three days we had study group, what I can say is so successful. Cause we had arranged the time table for it. Then today was the chemistry. We discussed three topics today,the topic i had prepared was the "Oxidation and reduction". Then I became the "small teacher" to explain this topic to them. Of course we discussed together too~ So now I wont feel boring to go to school, cause everyday i have a topic to "teach" them. Haha~ I mean, discuss together la~ Hehe=)

Well, talk about the days i went to kl last week. Actually learnt many many things during staying with my aunt and my mom's friend. Just think that staying at kl not very suitable for me. I hate those very very busy life. But the days I went there were Hari Raya so not so busy and crowded la. But I love those shopping centers there. Haha. then when I came back to Ipoh just feel that the shopping centers here really.... Want to know where i went? Em.. First day i went to Mid Valley with my aunt and cousins. Then that night i cooked too=p Haha~ Eh, just a few of very very simple dishes la. So was a tiring day lo. Then the second day i went to ioimall with my mom's friend n her sis. Not bad la~ After that went to Pavilion lo. Walau i tell u. The things there really feel afraid to touch lo. Touch also scared ah. Haha. But just went there to have a visit like that lo. Besides, the third day went to 1 utama lo. Eh, my mom and I went together with a quite big group of aunt Emily's family lo. Really quite big group lo. And aunt Emily's youngest son also went with us. He is same age with me but when he was born some cells inside his brain already dead. So so u can guess how is him now la. But I just felt comfortable with him. Cause he is really a nice, polite, kind-hearted and obedient boy lo. Even though he is different with us. Moreover, my mom and I also went to eat the famous yummy yummy 'fish head mihun' and went to Serdang and Cheras to eat big prawns and 'la la'. Awesome oh~ Hehe~

However, i bought a lots of things and carried them back to my lovely hometown. It was a wonderful journey oh=) He he.. Long time didint update my blog leh. Actually still have many to share, but tired to type now. Haha~ Later la~ Sayounara~

Finally...

Finally trial is over.. Yeah.. Just feel nothing actually. Cause the real spm is waiting for me soon. Still have around one month plus to get prepare. I know i really need to work hard for it. But when i see others work hard for it then i will think of myself that always lazy. I know i need to more harder and harder. But can i do it? Anyway holidays start now and i should let myself relax first. Cause already 3 weeks i didnt sleep well and everyday just feel so stressed about it.. Well.. after that then need to start to study lo.. No choice la, who ask me so lazy "p haha...

This holidays going to kl with my mom. Two girls.. Wow.. So brave. Haha. Actually i think is my mom want to go shopping and meet her old friends there.. She said last time they were very good friends during school time. Just like same age with me now wo.. Ok lo.. Actually feel good cause my mom still can meet her friends after so many many years.. I think around thirty more years lo.. Pls don't try to guess my mom's age. She still looks young and pretty okay.. Haha.. Well, hope i can really enjoy the time there. Cause not many have this chance to go kl with her mom.. And only two kaki (means 2 person). Haha. I want to buy many many things come back.. Yeah~ (crazy==")

I would like to introduce my house next time. My lovely lovely home.. Even though my house is quite messy and a lot of rubbish.. But i like the surrounding at my house.. Everyday u can hear the birds singing outside.. The environment is good and peace.. Monday can go to pasar malam by walking.. Of course my hometown got many many delicious foods. Especially the ban mee. Walao i tell u. U must at least wait 45 minutes then only can get to eat the yummy yummy ban mee. Really. If u r impatient to wait, sorry la. Haha.

Em.. Going to leave the school one more month later. It seem like so fast.. Later can't always together lo. Dunno in the future we can still chat and play like now le? Must be sad ba.. Haiz. Just appreciate the moments we together now lo. Whatever~

这刻的心情

那天从学校回来后，突然有种很奇怪的感觉，心里一直感到很不安。翻开的书，却怎样读都读不进脑。很辛苦。。也很痛苦。。 第一次有这样的感觉。很想痛痛快快地哭出来，可能会舒服点。脑里都塞满这些不安的心情。我到底怎么了？考试真的很辛苦。。不管我读了，温习了，一到考试要作答的时候，却怎样都写不好。。我知道自己没有做很充足的准备。。我以后会更努力了。。希望我做到啦~加油啊！

My future

Everytime when parents, aunties, uncles, relatives or others asked me about my future or what I want to be in the future, Im afraid that I don't know how to answer them. Im not keeping it as a secret or what. Just I have no idea what am I going to do in the future. Really. Sometime I will think about it but... Im not very good in science subjects such as physics, biology, chemistry and maths. Im not as good as others. Haiz. Actually who likes to study? I think most of us don't like.. We just force ourselves to study. To get a good result need to put a lot of times and efforts on it. But Im lazy, sorry. Nowadays people just looks at your education level and therefore many students force themselves to read read read. So do I. But no choice la.

I hope my future will be a life that I love and I enjoy. I should always stay strong to face the problems and challenges now and even in the future. This world is cruel. But there are hopes and wonderful things in this world too. Im not that good in my studies, but I can mix well with others and communicate with them. I think I can give good advice to them too. What should I do in the future? To be a counselor? Eh.. Not enough for me.. I mean I hope to be something better than this. Do bussiness? Like my parents? Actually is quite busy and tired you know. How about a teacher? Simple and easy work. But just have a look at those students now. Those in primary school like my brother. Haiz. Really difficult to teach la. No eye see --"

Actually I hope to study abroad. But do I have a chance? Moreover study abroad is not that easy. But I would like to gain some experiences in the foreign countries. It's actually awesome. But need to be brave too. Haha. Anyway, I must believe myself I can do it! Yeah~ Good luck for my future^^

Want to share somrthing here~
"The simple truth is that victory and satisfaction belong to those who do not choose the path of least resistance when faced with major life challenges." Cool le? Somenoe told me one la.. Haha~

猫的离去

曾经爸爸把一只白白的猫带回家，开始时它很陌生，一直叫个不停。自从把它从笼里放出来后，我的家就变成它的家。它爱睡哪里就睡哪里，但唯有我的床不能睡。每天回家时它都会跑前来欢迎我们，然后我们一回家第一时间就是疼摸它。它总是在我们脚边走来走去，摸来摸去的。有时候坐着时它会跳上来躺在我的大腿上，迟迟都不肯下来。它害我的双腿都变麻痹了。

它爱看外面的风景，看小鸟在栏杆上唱歌。它那大大的双眼一直盯着远方，不懂它究竟在看些什么。有时它懒洋洋地躺在哪儿睡觉，我叫它，它回头望一望我，便转回头继续躺着。我再次叫它，它就不睬我了。它明知我在叫它。它就是爱面子不要望我。每当它饿时，它就会叫我跟着它。它走到厨房，然后对着我猫猫叫。我知道。你饿了。给了食物，它便迫不及待地大口大咬。它真的超饿的啦。

三年了，看着你三年了。我曾看过生病的你。那时你突然大声地咳着，很辛苦的样子。你过后就吐出一些“东西”出来。我很怕，怕你会生病，然后就离开我。曾经也看过你身上流出许多红色的血，流在你那雪白的毛上是显得那么的明显啊！可是过后你都有好起来了。

那天回家后，看到地上到处都很肮脏，而且还可以看到你的脚印。那脚印一步一步地走向厨房那里。一打开灯，就看到你躺在厕所里面。爸爸叫你，幸好你的双眼还可以动。爸爸试着让你走动，可却你不动。过后爸爸把你抱到厨房去，你就躺在那里，也是不动。过了没多久，我趴在你面前叫你，你那两个大大的眼睛看着我，似乎在想些什么。其实，你并不是第一次这样望着我。每当你这样望着我时，我知道，我知道你一定在想些什么。遗憾的是，我不能知道你其实在想些什么。我真的好想能读取你的思想，真的好想。那时你就要走的时候，你就是这样望着我的。我摸一摸你的头，这是我时常做的，你就突然整个动了起来。你挣扎得很。我看着痛苦的你，便大声地叫爸爸下来。你大声地叫起来，很痛苦很痛苦。当爸爸过来叫着你的时后，你突然停下来，没有再挣扎了。爸爸再次叫你，你没有动了。我问爸爸你死了吗？爸爸不确定。过了一会儿，你仍然还是不动。这时，我们终于知道你走了。。。7月16日的晚上，你终于走了。。

我跑进自己的房间，眼泪顿时流了出来。我感觉到流下来的眼泪是温的，是伤心的温度。我知道，我以后再也见不到你了。我难过，但那只是几天而已。现在我不会再难过了。我会时常想起我们一起的时候，我要把这些美丽的回忆永远放在我的脑海里。

再见了，我可爱的小猫。

The Real Of Me

Y i created this blog is because i want to express my feeling here. Cause sometimes v may not say it or show it out in front of people. 'The Real Of Me'.. ya, through this blog i want to know about the real of me. U know, i think all of us hope that our friends really can understand and comprehend us. But how many of them will do so? Eveyone thinks that i have everything. But actually is not. Im very tired. Sometimes i will feel boring about this life. And at that moments i always need someone to be with me. Of course, i have some friends who comprehend me and they also know about it. Everyone hnows I have many friends. Many people just so admire or sometimes jeolous to me and actually i know that. I really don't know how to do la. I keep on telling myself just be myself. Cause im like that. But have many friends doesn't mean that im happy always. Ya, i know i should feel greatful about that. I know some friends wished to be like me. Im sorry to them. But i hope that i can share my joy to them. And i just want them to feel my kindness to be a friend to them. That's the real of me. Really. And I also want to thank my good good friends who always be with me. Without u all i think i cant survive la. Haha.

Sometimes alone will think a lot. Many nonsense things or some negative one too. I didnt force myself to think about it. The happy and sad memories just fall into my mind always. Especially before sleeping or alone. Haha. Think about friends la, small that time la, family la, at school la, and my privacy. Haha. Some sweet some bitter. But i do enjoy to think about it. Even though after thinking will be down down one.

I like to look at the sky at night and think. Dunno y le. Recently can see the big big moon at the sky oh. So yellow orange oh. Like an egg yolk. Haha. I just love it. Recently someone introduced me to watch the view of the sky in the early morning oh. Very amazing oh. Haiz. In the morning i always rushing to go to school where got time to see le. Anyway the weather now really cannot tahan la. Im sick now. Bad... Tired plus sick. My mum and dad said my face looked tired and white la. Relly so bad meh. I don't know how to take care of myself. So stupid.

Em em.. First time write blog le me. Hope i will write it often la. And trial is coming. Three more weeks only but now im sick. Haha. Hope i can focus on it la. That's all... The real of me. Say goodbye la.