National Service, I'm coming now!!!

Yesterday just went to buy those things which need to bring to the camp..
So so so many things i need to bring there..
That day i went to check my body in the clinic near my house to fill the forms for ns..
Waited almost a half day man..
Then this saturday Im going to the camp..
Three months!!
Who can understand my feeling?
I need to live a new life there.. With new environment, new friends, new lessons...
A bit afraid..
I wish i can meet someone which i really can mix with..
I hope to learn more..
I hope that i can really understand myself through this camp..
About future.. about myself..
What i really really want in my life?
What field should i take or so on..
If u ask me now, I just can say 'I don't know.'
I think I'm lost in these few years.. Really..
Lost in directions are something so scary and so helpless..
Come on.. Ns.. Let me be open-minded..
Let me to realize..
Let me to learn..
Le me to choose..
Le me to feel....
Thanks for giving me this chance to go for this camp..
Maybe it will be very bad..
But who cares..
Just let me to feel and to touch...
To begin my new life..
Say goodbye to the pass..
U can do it!
Just to believe yourself..
HAPPY NEW YEAR...