哭

昨天和今天哭了...
蛮久没哭了...
原因?
就为了那些事啊...
真的不懂自己究竟怎样...
脑海里一直在想这些那些的,
结果眼泪不听话地流了下来...
原来...
我一直在欺骗自己的感受...
我把那份痛收了起来...
收进心里...
不想让别人发现...
结果,
最痛苦的还不是自己?
我找不到别人来诉苦...
难过了好久好久...
我始终放不下啊~
被伤害了,
就不敢再面对了?
是别人的错吗?
不能怪别人啊...
不能再欺骗自己了...
但现在的我......
又能做些什么呢...？

Honestly...

Honestly I don't hope to get that scholarship...
Em,
after the interview yesterday...
the ppl there took me to visit the college..
First time visit there..
At first I thought that I would like this college...
But... after visiting there,
the environment just made me felt a bit uncomfortable...
Maybe the ppl there and KL life...
The college surrounds by all the shops..
Mostly are coffee shops..
At night there will be very busy...
cause the students all 'lepak' there..
In addition, beside the college is KDU college..
Another side is the Sin Chew publication..
In the morning the road in front of the college will be very very very busy...
Some more at night will have pasar malam there..
What a busy life... Ha
So... If I can't get this scholarship also nevermind..
Haha~ sorry for saying like this =p
But really...
after visiting there.. and think that I will be studying there for two and a half year..
In this kind of lifestyle....
Alamak!
I have a clearer view and thinking now..
Don't ever easily make decision!
Yes!

Interview..

This wednesday going PJ for interview..
Haiz.. Just so sudden..
Just got the call this morning..
I have never be interview before...
A bit worry...
But I need to try my best..
Cause is a chance for me, right?
Applying scholarship from The Star..
Never think that I can get it..
Anyway,
is a good experience and chance for me..
Oh God~ Pls guide me~~
Help me to go to the right way...
Good luck to myself.. =)

'I'm With You'

I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

im looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythigns a mess
and no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

..................Just like this lyrics and the music....................

Death

When am I going to leave this world?
Em..
Maybe when I become a granny that time..
Or...
The next day? The next hour? The next second?
No one could answer to me..
Recently my friends are facing this problem..
Someone had went to meet the angles in the heaven..
I'm sorry to hear about this.. Really sorry..
Suddenly just think of my grandma..
How long?
Still have how long I can see her smile, see her sweet face in this world?
I remember that day when all of us gathered to eat dinner in grandma's house to celebrate Chinese New Year,
grandma suddenly said :"When I'm not here anymore, who is going to cook these dishes to u all?".......
Grandma is a good cooker..
I love to eat her dishes..
Especially her fried egg with tomato sauce and soups..
Really taste good..
But now she rarely cook because of her legs..........
I had ever learnt to cook from her..
But leh.. I always failed to cook as good as her =p
Death..
Actually it just an end to our journey in this world..
I promise to love u more, grandma!

Happy day =)

Feeling happy..
Cause met many of my friends today..
Seem that we were all so excited to meet each other, haha
After a few months we graduated,
I seldom gather with all of u..
Today feel so happy chatting with u all..
I think I talked a lot =p
All of us are worry about our future...
All seem blur too~
Nevermind la, friends..
I believe we can find a good place to continue our studies..
It just need some time to search and to make decision..
So just take it easy!
Sure will have the way to settle down..
Gambatte oh!

Hijau

Bumi yang tiada rimba
seumpama hamba
Bia dicemari manusia
yang jahil ketawa

Bumi yang tiada udara
bagai tiada nyawa
Pasti hilang suatu hari
tanpa disedari

Bumi tanpa lautan
akan kehausan
Pasti lambat laun hilang
Duniaku yang malang

Chorus:
Dewasa ini kita saling merayakan
Kejayaan yang akhirnya membinasakan
Apalah gunanya kematangan fikiran
Bila dijiwa kita masih lagi muda dan mentah
Kulihat hijau~

Oo.. anok-anok
Tok leh menghaso mandi lauk
Bersaing main ghana-ghana
Ale roni tuo amonny berjoto
Kita usaha jauh dahgi
malo petako
Ozon loni koho nipih
Nak-nak aghi
Keno make asak
Hok biso

Weh paso man usia
Seghemo bendo-bendo di dunia
Tok reh tene
Sapo bilo-bilo (repeat chorus)

Bumi yang kian pudar
Siapa yang melihat
Di kala kita tersedar
Mungkinkah terlewat

Korupsi, Oppressi, Obsesi diri
Polussi, Peppresi di bumi kini....


I learnt this song from NS in CB class.. I miss CB class! It's fun!
Some more this song is meaningful... We must love our earth by not polluting it!