幸福，真的存在吗？

幸福，
到底是怎么了？

到底该怎样...
幸福才会来到我的身上？

我该觉得幸福的....
人啊，总是想得到更多...
需要的不多，想要的却太多...

今早翻开报纸,世界又发生天灾了...
报纸的封面是一个拿着饼干九个月大的小孩...
满脸都是干了的血迹...
意外的，
这才九个月大的小孩，
给我的感觉是，并没有像其他孩子因受伤了而哭花了脸...
他...
他那坚定又不放弃的眼神...
让我感到自己是那么的无助...

世界上时时刻刻都在发生着我们意想不到的事...
然而，
我却在这里时常对这些那些感到不满...
很差劲呢...

为什么？
要让他们受这种苦？
他们也跟我一样啊...
我可以分些幸福给他们吗？
他们不需要我们给他们可怜的眼神...
他们想要的，
应该是幸福吧...
失去了亲人，朋友，爱人...
是多么的痛苦和难过...
现在可以做的，
就是为他们祈祷....
希望他们能平安无事吧...

幸福.... 真的存在喔....^^

哭

昨天和今天哭了...
蛮久没哭了...
原因?
就为了那些事啊...
真的不懂自己究竟怎样...
脑海里一直在想这些那些的,
结果眼泪不听话地流了下来...
原来...
我一直在欺骗自己的感受...
我把那份痛收了起来...
收进心里...
不想让别人发现...
结果,
最痛苦的还不是自己?
我找不到别人来诉苦...
难过了好久好久...
我始终放不下啊~
被伤害了,
就不敢再面对了?
是别人的错吗?
不能怪别人啊...
不能再欺骗自己了...
但现在的我......
又能做些什么呢...？

Honestly...

Honestly I don't hope to get that scholarship...
Em,
after the interview yesterday...
the ppl there took me to visit the college..
First time visit there..
At first I thought that I would like this college...
But... after visiting there,
the environment just made me felt a bit uncomfortable...
Maybe the ppl there and KL life...
The college surrounds by all the shops..
Mostly are coffee shops..
At night there will be very busy...
cause the students all 'lepak' there..
In addition, beside the college is KDU college..
Another side is the Sin Chew publication..
In the morning the road in front of the college will be very very very busy...
Some more at night will have pasar malam there..
What a busy life... Ha
So... If I can't get this scholarship also nevermind..
Haha~ sorry for saying like this =p
But really...
after visiting there.. and think that I will be studying there for two and a half year..
In this kind of lifestyle....
Alamak!
I have a clearer view and thinking now..
Don't ever easily make decision!
Yes!

Interview..

This wednesday going PJ for interview..
Haiz.. Just so sudden..
Just got the call this morning..
I have never be interview before...
A bit worry...
But I need to try my best..
Cause is a chance for me, right?
Applying scholarship from The Star..
Never think that I can get it..
Anyway,
is a good experience and chance for me..
Oh God~ Pls guide me~~
Help me to go to the right way...
Good luck to myself.. =)

'I'm With You'

I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

im looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythigns a mess
and no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you

..................Just like this lyrics and the music....................

Death

When am I going to leave this world?
Em..
Maybe when I become a granny that time..
Or...
The next day? The next hour? The next second?
No one could answer to me..
Recently my friends are facing this problem..
Someone had went to meet the angles in the heaven..
I'm sorry to hear about this.. Really sorry..
Suddenly just think of my grandma..
How long?
Still have how long I can see her smile, see her sweet face in this world?
I remember that day when all of us gathered to eat dinner in grandma's house to celebrate Chinese New Year,
grandma suddenly said :"When I'm not here anymore, who is going to cook these dishes to u all?".......
Grandma is a good cooker..
I love to eat her dishes..
Especially her fried egg with tomato sauce and soups..
Really taste good..
But now she rarely cook because of her legs..........
I had ever learnt to cook from her..
But leh.. I always failed to cook as good as her =p
Death..
Actually it just an end to our journey in this world..
I promise to love u more, grandma!

Happy day =)

Feeling happy..
Cause met many of my friends today..
Seem that we were all so excited to meet each other, haha
After a few months we graduated,
I seldom gather with all of u..
Today feel so happy chatting with u all..
I think I talked a lot =p
All of us are worry about our future...
All seem blur too~
Nevermind la, friends..
I believe we can find a good place to continue our studies..
It just need some time to search and to make decision..
So just take it easy!
Sure will have the way to settle down..
Gambatte oh!