life

When u come to a certain stage of you life.
U will find that our views changed.
Last time I've never think like this before.
But now.. it keeps on bothering my mind.
Yea. Maybe people got to change according to their ages.
Or maybe according to the things they experienced in life?
Or maybe this is what God wants us to go through in our lives?
You won't know you're changing..
and the people around you may realize it and maybe they will tell you..
only that time, you will start to think about what have u changed..
I think it's hard to find out what you changed..
Do you think I changed??
I said yes...
maybe one day you meet me at somewhere and you will wonder is that me..
Is it good to change??
No comment.
What I know is...
life still goes on.. and everyone you meet colours everyday in your life..
No one can survive without having family, friends and beloved one...
and we always complicate things in life..
things can be simple when you change the view to look at  it..
but somehow our thinking will be different at all time..


Im been thinking of something recently...
I hope when the time comes.. I can make a right decision...
before this.. just enjoy and fulfill my chapters of life now.. 
I know I will.. 

WILL YOU TAKE CHANGES NOW AND CHASE AFTER YOUR DREAMS??

How I wish.......

HOW I wish my life could be that peaceful and wonderful.... HOW I wish I don't need to think and worry this and that and just like a child..  HOW I wish I can travel all around the world with my love one.. HOW I wish I can be with my beloved one forever.. HOW I wish the one which I love and care will care for me too..HOW I wish how I wish... how I wish..... how I wish... how I wish..............................

INTERNAL CONFLICT

Im weird recently.. damn it
I hate myself like this...
I'M SICK!!!

it's too quiet here..
and the only thing to make some noises here is switch on the tv...

I don't know what I want now..
BAD MOOD
there is something inside my heart..
which I don't tell others..
maybe I love to keep it myself..
that's why I feel so tired and so emotional..

haiz, things actually happened long time ago and I just ignored it..
UNTIL NOW
I'm enough
I'M TIRED
but I don't know how to cure it
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

Memorable day :)

Just wanna keep what had happened today deep deep inside my heart..
Thanks for listening my friend :)
and felt glad to meet u today..
and yea of course.. will go THERE next year!!!
hehehe.. konbawa.. :)

August

It's August!!!
what I can say is.. time really passes so fast!
just came back from pasar malam AGAIN~~
went there twice today hehe..
so.. life recently still the same la..
but I appreciate the moments with family and friends...
feel happy and please with them..:)
and...
happy birthday to Poh Kim la :) hehe..
hope u will hv a great one.. ^^

差劲的我

就觉得。。
自己其实很差劲
很多事情别人可能察觉不到，或其实早已察觉到了
我。。
是一个怎样的人
有时候可以装得很完美
装得很无所谓
一直戴着面具吗？
不。。
有时候我真的可以为了一些事而变得很热情，很疯狂
我啊。。
就是这样
一直装着无所谓无所谓
为什么你不坦白点呢？
从小到大的习惯吗？
我不懂。。。。。。


今天。。
七月了呢
太快了吧？
之后。。
没机会像现在这样了吗？
以后。。
会变吗？
我。。。


请原凉我的无所谓。。
曾经与我一起渡过的。。
不管现在还是以前。。
其实。。我很在乎的

my holidays :)

deng deng deng deng~~
my holidays started with the wonderful trip in Genting!!
of course with my beloved gang~^^

6 of us :)

First day we stayed at a nice apartment at Awana.

We cooked for our lunch and dinner!! ><

siapa ini? hahaha..

jadi burger ni XD play play la~~

nice view of genting :)

plssssss don't misunderstand ppl~~ look at my finger.. it was hurt with a deep cut over there!! :(  cut my finger in the morning of the first day of the trip >< pain la~~

  lol. see our expressions.. cute right? hahaha XD

the last picture we took before we went back.. enjoyed so much~~ :)

love u all.. <3

p.s. the weather is sooooo cold there XD yet still fun!! :)

After came back from Genting the other morning I went to Sri Kledang and 88 la.. hahaha..

pui yee and me ^^

:)

then we went Crazy Ice-cream house for lunch.. see hui chin so enjoyed haha..

Lol. hahaha.. long time we didn't yam cha ady lo.. happy happy :)

ahhh.. still had so much wanna share.. like I went shopping and yam cha with my gang in jusco and the celebration in aunt's house.. really enjoyed:) hehe.. 

to be continued... :P 

 oopsss.. it's pui yee's birthday today :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY~ ^^

Im free!!!!!!!

Holidays waiting for me!!
Gathering waiting for me!!!
Nice foods waiting for me!!
Shopping day waiting for me!!
Chit-chat time waiting for me!!!
Tv time waiting for me!!!
Online time waiting for me!!
Play time waiting for me!!
Life without STUDY is already here waiting for me!!! yeah!!!
XD



okay.. I know it's just last for few weeks only..
seriously the papers which I sat really SUCK!!
no matter how hardworking u study... u can't confirm that u will pass the papers..
I just need to PASS pls~~

cross fingers XD
whatever~ just let it be~~

Suck

I feel suck after the first paper..
just dunno y...
need to prepare more harder for the next paper.. yer
hope i can do it well
God bless.

exam = my life now

my life now is just about studies studies studies...

。。。

为了将来，我并没打算放弃。

可是

有时候真的麻木了。

麻木到不晓得自己当初是为了什么而努力。

有时候甚至会害怕

未来究竟还有多远

梦想

遥远得不敢去想

怕会比自己所想的来得更模糊
更失望

累了
还得撑下去
直到
一切结束的那一刻

neutral

recently just feel neutral...
almost everyday looking at the books and the whole day just passed like this..
it's already one month!!
the whole month after I woke up I'm holding a book or notes..
even when I'm watching tv or do other things I were worrying about my studies..
but I didn't feel stress recently...
just feel that I need to study..
maybe this is my responsibility or what..
people said I'm stress free wo..
actually I just don't know too la..
my heart just feel calm and ok ok...
going to start exam next week... bo feeling now..
actually still got a lot need to do revision but...
i just don't know la..
take it easy....
didn't really emo recently..
because of studies??
I don't know..
maybe I should be glad that I didn't feel emo ..
yea.. stay neutral..
all the best...

p.s. what is the ph value of neutral?

These are my best buddies!! ^^

we went to Daorea and makan makan!! :)

at kay lee's house.. hehe...(can't see my face, blek:P)

Annual dinner =) someone leng leng oh~~ 

My 19th birthday.. :)

it's the gift from Yen Wei ^^

They celebrated for me after the class ended. Well, quite surprised when I know the lecturer purposely ended the class so early de lo!! Thanks a lot!!! These are my dear classmates ^^ they are really nice :) 

The one who wearing pink blouse is my lecturer, Ms.Liza.. oops, is her birthday today ^^ beside me are Yen Wei and Kay Lee.. my best buddies :D thanks for the cake!!

Lol! I purposely asked my friend to take this pic.. haha.. for fun only actually!! hahaha.. It's Ken and Winson.. They looked so shy! :P

This is Mr.Simon my T5 lecturer. He is sooo cute X3 He loves to take pictures around.. haha.. He gave me a small gift, appreciated :) thank you sir!!

This is pretty Yen Wei.. she is very beautiful right? hehe... she loves to take leng leng pic.. because she is leng lui!! haha.. tq Yen Wei~~

I want to take this opportunity to thank you Chooi Yee for making the CD!! Omg.. I really love it ya.. TQ TQ TQ!! I know u spent a lot of time to make it.. I just laugh when I watch it everytime.. :) hehe..

&

Thanks to those who purposely send message to wish me that day.. I've received it. Xie xie :) 

&

I got a surprised yesterday.. really surprised.. thanks to someone which is now so far away from here but never forget to wish me and give me present. Thanks.. :) 

I love you all. :) I'm officially 19 now.. big liao lo~~^^

T6,T7,T9 and T10

4 papers this time.. jia you!!

I feel weird again..

stop that weird feeling!!!
it made me think a lot..
must always at the positive side mel!!

this night....

To the friend that I love..

just wanna tell u that i finally feel that u r not here anymore..
after u left that night.. I started to miss u A LOT..
is it everything okay over there?
have u put my little pot of plant on the side of ur desk??
I can't imagine how are we going to be many years later..
can sleep well over there? pls don't get insomnia.. but I know u are a pig when u are tired.. haha..
Try to mix with the people over there pls..I guess u will learn a lot from them..
and pls pls pls take good care of yourself over there..
don't try to skip meals or whatever... and hope u can find good friends there..
don't miss the friends here too much la.. if not u will always feel bad.. haha...kidding k..

Well.. I'm trying to recall back how long we had met...u still remember it? I think I told u before?
Just wanna tell u u r special to me and of course to all of beloved friends here..
hey suddenly remember last time u told me that u hope that I can enter to the same place where u studied..hahaha.. so funny la.. cause I'm not as good as u.. blek.. but I will gambatte on my studies too..
I'm very glad that can hang out with u before u left la.. even though it was just few times.. but I wanna hang out with u again lo.. then we drink beer together^^ But it happened too fast!! T.T
Hey, really glad to meet u in my life.. I hope u will be blessed always.. be cheerful!! Be strong.. Thank you for everything!! Love the moments when we were sharing and caring.. :) hope u will happy always.. from my deepest heart.. bless u :)  

This March..

What had happened during this March??

Hmm... let me think..

Hmm.. I still remember the beginning of this month I was doing revision for my progress tests..

So damn scared lo.. cause usually I didn't touch those books and do revision..

I know I'm lazy.. haiz...

I need some stress really.. :P

Then on 13th went for heel-a-thon at college.. so tired that day.. cause after the event I need to help in the shop.. 

my legs were totally cacat..><

p/s: it's Justine's birthday that day.. so sad can't celebrate for her.. :(

oh I remember I went to watch Black Swan with LY and SW.. haha.. first time for SW~ muahaha.. :D

after that we went pc fair and it suddenly rain heavily.. haha.. long time we didn't hang out together lo~

love the time when we were together playing around.. and it made me feel warm and thought about how we met and became good friends like now..(long story.. hahaha..)

thanks!! appreciate it so much.. ^^ hope our friendship will become stronger and closer.. ok? :) keep in touch...

oh ya.. I need to write something about my friend here.. her name called.....CY!!.. yea it's you!! blek :p

she is a cute girl.. haha.. we always fooling around with some other crazy gang, lol~

enjoy the time with you all.. really... 

and thanks for everything.. I know you really care for your friends.. and sometime others just didn't realize it..

and tell you what.. actually I realized it hehe.. and we also concern about you.. so don't always keep your secret!! hahaha.. and pls... don't influence me la.. T.T (kidding~~) Guitar~~ :P blek!!

oops.. and had a great gathering with Five Golden Flower and some other friends of smkm.. haha.. glad that you all still have the heart with me.. it reminds me of my secondary school life.. for those who is leaving.. all the best.. and be strong pui see!! n keng.. gambatte^^ 

conclusion is: had a great chance to meet my friends this month.. thanks everyone!! :)

...........................

tomorrow gonna be a great day~~ don't pop my ulcer kay!! XP

hahaha.. I think I gonna be serious for my studies.. FOCUS MEL!! (say say only..XP )

に 特別な友人

私が言って昨日を感謝したい^^

don't feel so sad for leaving ya.. 

私はいつもあなたを欠場することに

all the best for you.. 

ganbatte ne! :)

sorry for any grammer mistake here ya>< hehehe...

过去？

昨晚跟朋友谈了谈自己的事~
谈了3个小时多吧？
很久也没讲起过去的事了。。
现在回想起来真的觉得蛮搞笑的...
以前遇到的那些种种挫折，
我都不晓得自己是怎样挨过来的..
只希望现在的我会像以前一样能够勇敢地面对...
但是却不会再像以前那样把所有事情都留给自己..
我啊~
会学习不要再一个人独自去承受这一切...
因为四周都会有愿意聆听你倾述的朋友:)

memories？
will always keep in my deepest heart =)

YES!!!!!!!!!!

Your examination results for the December 2010 session issued on 21-FEB-11 are:

Paper Details: T5 Mng Pple & Sys

Result: Pass

COPY FROM THE MAIL. YES!!!!!!!!! I PASSED MY T5 PAPER!!!!!! :p

二月更新~

不知不觉又要到这个时候了...
明天要拿成绩了！
好像一瞬间就到明天了><
唉~
希望可以拿到满意的成绩吧！:)


之后就是最近的情况...
新年过完了~
现在觉得新年最重要的还是与家人在一起，
还有跟很久都没见的亲戚聚聚~
大家开心得谈天，过新年~
以前都觉得新年是理所当然的可以有假期和拿红包~
现在却特别地珍惜...
尤其是跟祖母在一起的时候:)
今年新年唯一遗憾的是，
没办法吃到祖母亲手下厨的菜肴..
以前每一年的除夕都可以吃到的..
今年改去吃steamboat了><
还记得以前曾经跟堂姐说过：“每年都是一样的菜肴啊~”
哈哈，今年我却没机会可以吃了T.T
然后最难忘的是新年的最后一天下课之后到翠仪家玩masak masak吃晚餐~
然后放烟花和丢枕头 :D
还有还有~
新年间也有陪妈妈去kl一趟，真的是累死了~
不过第一次坐ktm express，真的很舒服！
^^

这个月所拍的照片:)

 在朋友家:)

KL拍的~（不够睡啦~><)

最珍惜的朋友

人在寂寞时

并非最想得到别人的关心与安慰

而是

在寂寞时希望能找到

能够交流心声的知己

是能够与自己分享孤独与悲伤的知己

也因此

彼此都成为

最珍惜的朋友

I don't know..

Okay..
I know I'm losing something very important in my life..
Ah, I just didn't realize it.
Hate myself.
Am I that not understandable or it's because of distance?
I just don't know.
Maybe friendship will fades. I'm sorry. Really sorry.

要拼了~

就是。。
现在的课可不是开玩笑的~
如果不好好努力不行呢~
所以。。
加油吧！
要忙功课和温习了~
不能在这里呆太久啦~
~~~>.<~~~~

2010- 2011

我接受唔到咯！
今年我将要十九岁了！
话说我真的不懂为什么我会接受不到（一开始啦~）
可能是觉得2010年过得太快了~
还记得去年的今天我才刚在营里过第二天~
那时候对营里的生活感到既兴奋又好奇~
而不知不觉的，三月的时候就出营了~
还记得出营之后回到家我不认得我房里的床了，
还跑去问妈妈，“你帮我换了床吗？”哈哈哈~
之后啊~就变得很得空，几乎天天都呆在店里，
烦着要去哪里继续读书，还有因为一些事情也变得看不开，
低落了几个月，也掉了不少眼泪...
还记得有一晚家人都睡着了的时候，
我躲在房里一角没有开灯地狂哭，
哭了很久很久~
第一次那样呢~
那时候即使遇到自己喜欢的事物都没办法快乐起来~
啊~真的好傻，哈哈~
过没多久后，就开始在学院读书了~
在学院里认识了一班好友~
我们时常都一起出去喝茶，吃饭~
一起去逛街，走pasar malam等等~
还有不懂为什么跟他们在一起我就会不顾形态地大笑还有变傻婆那样high起来>.<
可能我那班朋友也是这个样子吧~哈哈~
可能是因为这班朋友所以我“清醒”过来吧~
我渐渐地把之前的不快乐给忘掉了~ :)
之后就一直忙着读书考试，直到年尾假期了~
31号那天跟Yen Wei,Kay Lee和她的妹妹一起去jusco逛了整天~
去popular又买了一本杂志和一本书，
然后当天baskin robbin有offer哦~
所以要回的时候买了一小桶回去给家人尝尝~
虽然有offer可是也要将近RM20咯~ T.T
不过真的很好吃啦~^^
开心~^^

之后就是1.1.2011
这天跟家人一起去taiping^^
最近家人在工作上都蛮烦恼和压力的~
所以趁这天难得的假期去很久超久没去的taiping咯~
哇，那里的食物真的很很很好吃咯！
在那里尝试了猪肉satay，otak-otak, kuih等等~
真的很好吃！
之后很满足地回家了~ :)

3.1.2011
今年第一天上课，
不过lecturer只是说说没有正式地教书~
过后就跟朋友约好了要交换圣诞礼物~
结果我收到巧克力哦~^^
之后跟朋友出去吃午餐~
再去jusco看电影^^
看Tourist~
Angelina Jolie真的很辣很美咯~
完美的女人啊~~
这部戏也很好看呢~
然后晚上，
朋友到我家附近的pasar malam吃板面，
吃完后再去走走~
今天很开心！:)
希望今年可以学习及体会不同的新事物！:)
新年快乐！