Death

When am I going to leave this world?
Em..
Maybe when I become a granny that time..
Or...
The next day? The next hour? The next second?
No one could answer to me..
Recently my friends are facing this problem..
Someone had went to meet the angles in the heaven..
I'm sorry to hear about this.. Really sorry..
Suddenly just think of my grandma..
How long?
Still have how long I can see her smile, see her sweet face in this world?
I remember that day when all of us gathered to eat dinner in grandma's house to celebrate Chinese New Year,
grandma suddenly said :"When I'm not here anymore, who is going to cook these dishes to u all?".......
Grandma is a good cooker..
I love to eat her dishes..
Especially her fried egg with tomato sauce and soups..
Really taste good..
But now she rarely cook because of her legs..........
I had ever learnt to cook from her..
But leh.. I always failed to cook as good as her =p
Death..
Actually it just an end to our journey in this world..
I promise to love u more, grandma!

Happy day =)

Feeling happy..
Cause met many of my friends today..
Seem that we were all so excited to meet each other, haha
After a few months we graduated,
I seldom gather with all of u..
Today feel so happy chatting with u all..
I think I talked a lot =p
All of us are worry about our future...
All seem blur too~
Nevermind la, friends..
I believe we can find a good place to continue our studies..
It just need some time to search and to make decision..
So just take it easy!
Sure will have the way to settle down..
Gambatte oh!

Hijau

Bumi yang tiada rimba
seumpama hamba
Bia dicemari manusia
yang jahil ketawa

Bumi yang tiada udara
bagai tiada nyawa
Pasti hilang suatu hari
tanpa disedari

Bumi tanpa lautan
akan kehausan
Pasti lambat laun hilang
Duniaku yang malang

Chorus:
Dewasa ini kita saling merayakan
Kejayaan yang akhirnya membinasakan
Apalah gunanya kematangan fikiran
Bila dijiwa kita masih lagi muda dan mentah
Kulihat hijau~

Oo.. anok-anok
Tok leh menghaso mandi lauk
Bersaing main ghana-ghana
Ale roni tuo amonny berjoto
Kita usaha jauh dahgi
malo petako
Ozon loni koho nipih
Nak-nak aghi
Keno make asak
Hok biso

Weh paso man usia
Seghemo bendo-bendo di dunia
Tok reh tene
Sapo bilo-bilo (repeat chorus)

Bumi yang kian pudar
Siapa yang melihat
Di kala kita tersedar
Mungkinkah terlewat

Korupsi, Oppressi, Obsesi diri
Polussi, Peppresi di bumi kini....


I learnt this song from NS in CB class.. I miss CB class! It's fun!
Some more this song is meaningful... We must love our earth by not polluting it!

I don't know... I just feel that everyone is so busy...

After back from camp..
Suddenly just feel lonely..
No more friends which always by my side now..
Everyone busy with their things..
Me? Just have nothing to do..
I know many of them working, some even studying now..
After came back here i feel like I'm a stranger..
My feeling is complicated..
And is negative too..
I don't know?
I just feel that no one have time with me..
Or maybe is myself don't have time with them?
I just wanna to share a lot a lot of things to all of them..
And I would like to hear about their stories too..
But seem that we don't really have time..
Haiz.. I just miss u guys..
Some more now I'm thinking which course should I choose..
I still can accept my result..
Is not good and bad, just okay for me..
Maybe I'm tired to be alone for this whole day..
No one talk to me cause I stay at home alone..
I went out to the nearby shop alone..
Bought things alone..
Actually it was quite dangerous... Sorry la..
Sometime I just like to be alone but....
Many negative thinkings just will come into my mind..
And that is what I don't like..
Aiya.. Maybe tomorrow I will go out by myself again..
Try to be happy, Mel!
Don't forget still have friends which will stand by ur side!
But I'm still alone in my bedroom now..
Facing the laptod..
Enjoying the loneliness tonight...............

My photos in NS...

The last night in our camp... They all were same company with me...

This is Ruby oh~ She likes to talk about 'boy'.. Haha.. and she is mixed from Iban and Kadazan =P

Wei.. On duty la.. Don't be lazy!!

This is Wen Wen oh.. She is very cute de!

Yeah~ We are on duty that day! Haha.. ( From left: Pa'ej, Tasha, Mel and the other one is Pui Yee oh!)

I'm back from NS!!

Finally... I'm back! Back to my lovely hometown, back to Ipoh. I miss Ipoh foods leh. Miss my old old friends here=( How u guys? This morning i woke up from my camp, then i left that place.. No more staying at there... My dorm mates, all waited beside to say the last 'goodbye' to me.. I know.. I can't cry that time.. Cause my eyes were pain.. Recently my eyes r sensitive.. All of them said don't cry la, Mel.. Wei.. My eyes sensitive la.. (I told them already..) But i knew no one believe one, haha~ Cause everyone cried yesterday.. And my tears just dropped only but didn't cry like mad la.. Haha.. I just smiled at them, waving hand to them and hug them.. Thanks u guys for being a part of my life in NS.. We always shared and played together.. We even all punished together though we were innocent.. So kesian la we all that 2 days.. Kena pakai FULL LORENG 24 hours man!! (p/s: Full loreng is that blue tebal tebal uniform with wearing a bearing, its so heavy and hot man!) But it was a special memory la.. I won't forget my friends there.. They are from KK (Kota Kinabalu). Papar(Sabah), Cheras, Subang, Perak, Bintulu, Kuching, Pahang, Sandakan and etc. 'NAMA BERITA, KAWAN?' in Iban means 'Apa khabar,kawan?' Hehe.. I learnt many languages too! Just enjoyed there.. Besides, many activities yang mencabar like menembak, rakit, kembara halangan, kayak, play water in the pond, flying fox, jungle hikking, wirajaya, CB Kelas. KN kelas, Program Integrasi, Program Penghayatan Sastera dan Budaya(PPSB), Pragram Khidmat Kominiti, Kelas Kerohanian, PT pagi and also.... KAWAD!! Hahaha~ Many many memories just splash back to my mind now.. I love NS!! Even though there were a lot of unhappy memories too la.. But still appreciate it=) And I love my company too- BRAVO! I will never never never forget our cheer, its awesome!! SAY GO GO GO (X7), SAY FIGHT(X7), SAY WIN(X7), SAY GO FIGHT WIN, PANTHERA! And our song "Gemuruh Panthera".. and and and our cute cute ketua company for girls- Fit and our handsome handsome ketua company- Halim.. Really handsome one la he.. Haha.. Lastly, we wil still keep in touch no matter what happen, k? Goodbye, my friends......

Cuti for Tahun Baru Cina..

Yo, long time didn't online man.. Finally today I'm 'out' from my camp.. Want to say hello to my friends in Ipoh.. How r u guys?? I'm fine here.. And i do enjoy in my camp.. But I only come back Ipoh for 3 days only.. Actually the holidays r 5 days but because I need to stay at kl for one night so.... not enough la.. But whatever.. Is great to come back to my hometown.. Later I will share something here.. Happy Chinese New Year=)