I don't know..

Okay..
I know I'm losing something very important in my life..
Ah, I just didn't realize it.
Hate myself.
Am I that not understandable or it's because of distance?
I just don't know.
Maybe friendship will fades. I'm sorry. Really sorry.

要拼了~

就是。。
现在的课可不是开玩笑的~
如果不好好努力不行呢~
所以。。
加油吧！
要忙功课和温习了~
不能在这里呆太久啦~
~~~>.<~~~~

2010- 2011

我接受唔到咯！
今年我将要十九岁了！
话说我真的不懂为什么我会接受不到（一开始啦~）
可能是觉得2010年过得太快了~
还记得去年的今天我才刚在营里过第二天~
那时候对营里的生活感到既兴奋又好奇~
而不知不觉的，三月的时候就出营了~
还记得出营之后回到家我不认得我房里的床了，
还跑去问妈妈，“你帮我换了床吗？”哈哈哈~
之后啊~就变得很得空，几乎天天都呆在店里，
烦着要去哪里继续读书，还有因为一些事情也变得看不开，
低落了几个月，也掉了不少眼泪...
还记得有一晚家人都睡着了的时候，
我躲在房里一角没有开灯地狂哭，
哭了很久很久~
第一次那样呢~
那时候即使遇到自己喜欢的事物都没办法快乐起来~
啊~真的好傻，哈哈~
过没多久后，就开始在学院读书了~
在学院里认识了一班好友~
我们时常都一起出去喝茶，吃饭~
一起去逛街，走pasar malam等等~
还有不懂为什么跟他们在一起我就会不顾形态地大笑还有变傻婆那样high起来>.<
可能我那班朋友也是这个样子吧~哈哈~
可能是因为这班朋友所以我“清醒”过来吧~
我渐渐地把之前的不快乐给忘掉了~ :)
之后就一直忙着读书考试，直到年尾假期了~
31号那天跟Yen Wei,Kay Lee和她的妹妹一起去jusco逛了整天~
去popular又买了一本杂志和一本书，
然后当天baskin robbin有offer哦~
所以要回的时候买了一小桶回去给家人尝尝~
虽然有offer可是也要将近RM20咯~ T.T
不过真的很好吃啦~^^
开心~^^

之后就是1.1.2011
这天跟家人一起去taiping^^
最近家人在工作上都蛮烦恼和压力的~
所以趁这天难得的假期去很久超久没去的taiping咯~
哇，那里的食物真的很很很好吃咯！
在那里尝试了猪肉satay，otak-otak, kuih等等~
真的很好吃！
之后很满足地回家了~ :)

3.1.2011
今年第一天上课，
不过lecturer只是说说没有正式地教书~
过后就跟朋友约好了要交换圣诞礼物~
结果我收到巧克力哦~^^
之后跟朋友出去吃午餐~
再去jusco看电影^^
看Tourist~
Angelina Jolie真的很辣很美咯~
完美的女人啊~~
这部戏也很好看呢~
然后晚上，
朋友到我家附近的pasar malam吃板面，
吃完后再去走走~
今天很开心！:)
希望今年可以学习及体会不同的新事物！:)
新年快乐！

Happy New Year =D

到这个时候了吗？ 

祝大家新年快乐，一切顺利！

Angel Beats! 'Brave song'

昨天一口气看完这部Angle Beats! 嗯，蛮感人的。
喜欢这首ending theme song,很有意思。:)

English Translation

I was always walking alone, When I turned around everyone was far behind

Even so I kept walking, That was what strength was

“I’m not afraid of anything anymore,” I try to whisper to myself

Everyone becomes alone someday living on only in memories

So that I can love and laugh even in loneliness I will fight

I will show no tears

I was always walking alone, A cliff waited for me at my destination

Even so I kept walking as proof of my strength

The strong wind blew against me, My shirt stuck to me with sweat

If I can forget everything someday living will become so much simpler

If I fall past oblivion that’s just running away

If only the meaning of having lived would disappear

Before long the wind died down and the sweat evaporated

I’ve become hungry, Did something happen?

Together with vibrant voices a pleasant scent came along

I was always walking alone, Everyone was waiting

Everyone becomes alone someday living on only in memories

Even so it’s fine, I will call these peaceful feelings my companions

Living somewhere I will someday forget the days that I spent with everyone as well

At that time I won’t be strong anymore

With the weakness of a normal girl tears will overflow

Blessed Christmas week :)

The second week of my holidays were very tired but meaningful and enjoyed :)

why?

because this week is Christmas week^^

I spent most of the time with my family.. especially my mum :)

feel lovely =3 

I drove to shop with my mum almost everyday in this week.

I helped in the shop until I was exhausted.

really so tired.. but then..

that Wednesday and Thursday after worked went shopping at Parade with my mum..

Mummy bought a lot of things for me,

she said they were for my Christmas presents and for the helping in the shop.

2 dresses, 1 skirt, 1 legging, 2 shoes XD ( I'm a shopaholic >.< )

really too over for me..:P

but thank mum!

normally she don't even will buy for me! :D

then this week took a lot of nice foods with mum...

McD for breakfast, KFC for lunch, Burger King for dinner ( not healthy! don't learn me!! >.< )

then Kenny Rogger some more =.= ( pls forgive me.. >.< )

At the night of Christmas eve, went Station 1 cafe with mummy.. 

it is just near my house... so many people that night.. 

luckily we found a place when we arrived.. foods there really not bad.. hehe.. hope to go there again^^

Then today- 25 Dec 2010- Christmas Day!!

This morning like usual went church to celebrate..

Great worship and sermon :)

sang some Christmas songs and learnt something from the sermon.. haha..

after service at night went to friend's house to celebrate and ate dinner^^

then now.. Im blogging :D haha.. 

simple and great Christmas week for me..

cause I spent most of the time with my family.. :)

Before holidays parents only came back to home very late at night and therefore I rarely have time with them.. 

so I feel great and appreciated together now :)

but I really miss my friends.. :(

hope to meet you all soon! 

Merry Christmas! 

Jesus was born today! Let's glorify him! Amen!

Jesus was born today! :) Hallelujah~

The first week of my holidays

Friday- 10.12.2010
Yay! Finally I finished my T5 exam! My holidays started! :)

Saturday- 11.12.2010
Went to shop this day. Really long time didn't go to shop since I'm studying in college now. Met Diana.. and don't know why I not really like to stay at shop now..

Sunday- 12.12.2010
Just stay at house.. Went to a boutique and I bought a blouse XD

Monday and Tuesday- 13.12.2010 to 14.12.2010
Woke up early in the morning,cause today I'm going to Teluk Intan!! Took bus with Carol and Merryn. Whole journey about 2 hours from Medan Kit. Hmmm, this was my first time to Teluk Intan, so felt excited! :) We stayed at Winson's house for one night. He brought us to the town and of course to the Condong Menara which located right in the middle of the town. Spend most of the time taking photos with friends :P But really enjoyed!^^

Some of the photos we took:

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Wednesday- 15.12.2010
Went Lost World with secondary school friends :) enjoyed and fun! Thanks guys! ^^

Saturday- 18.12.2010
Kien Mun asked me for photoshoot. Actually I'm not really have a good sleep recently, so looked a bit tired.. haha.. Anyway, thanks Kien Mun! :)